Worth fighting for?

It is sad, but I have been feeling more and more unwilling to go back and help out with something which is very close to my heart. I have always justified hanging on for so long by telling myself that it is definately worth it, as long as I can see the desire to win in them.

Perhaps their spirits have been sapped by the rigors of this gruelling journey. Perhaps they are too caught up with their own problems. Perhaps the kind of attitude which I wish to see has become irrelevant, a relic from a different era. Or perhaps I am merely out of touch, with how they are intending to win this fight.

In the past we had always fallen back upon our 'winning formula' when we were lost and needed direction. This formula, covering both organisational concepts and design philosophy, served us well for many years indeed. The formula's aura of invincibility was shattered, finally and dramatically, last year, and in a sense it was inevitable. Times are changing, and those who desire to remain at the top, must adapt and adapt quickly. The old formula simply would not cut it today; a new one has to be found.

But I do not see the foundations being laid for a promising new tradition. I only see the foundations of the old being eroded away furthur and furthur, beaten down and worn away by the merciless challenges of the everchanging times.

I feel powerless to stem this tide. I do not know wat I can do, or how I can make myself more relevant, or whether I even should be doing this anymore. With three titles to my name, I have nothing left to prove. I would let go, if not for the the fact that there are a few who still dream, who still fight.

I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind